The thing about having severe depression and anxiety that no one talks about…is the fact that it can make you feel stupid. You forget things easily, your focus goes to shit, it’s hard to digest new information, and your interests dwindle. Your mind turns inside itself and the only thoughts you have are negative and self-critical, and all your time is spent analyzing your depressive thoughts and why they are there. When i was depressed i couldn’t focus on school one bit; when my friends brought up interesting topics I wanted so badly to participate and say something enlightening, but I could never find the words inside myself. You know your intelligence is in there somewhere, but you can’t bring it to the forefront of your brain no matter how hard you try. You feel damaged, and it changes you forever. It isn’t just “omg I want to kill myself”, it isn’t even that a lot of the time. It goes way deeper, and your intellect is affected. That’s scary.